fallsfromtrees:
The true blame for the condition of Basilisk Station can be directly laid at the feet of Janacek, and unfortunately the Admiralty didn't cashier him instead of beaching him when he did get ejected from the seat of power - it might have helped a little bit in the interregnum.
cthia wrote:
But his incompetence in OBS did start the ball rolling. But. Can we really blame just Young for OBS when every other CO before him was just as schitty a PB&J sandwich?
kzt:
No, it was laziness and vindictiveness. He didn't want to be at Basilisk and stuck Honor with a sucky job without the resources to do it right so he could knife her over it later.
I didn't want to end up here, but like they say 'every where you go, there you are.' So here I am.
One of the hardest things to swallow in the Honorverse. Actually, second only to the kids dying in the Mueller School dome project.
Honor took so much schit from Pavel. Through it all, she did what the Good Book asks us to do. 'Turn the other cheek.' Honor turned so many cheeks she was beginning to lose appendages - which
literally symbolized giving and losing a piece of herself. And everyone that she should have been able to count on,
thought she was able to count on, let her down. When
Honor needed someone, anyone...
the most ... they let her down.
Hamish Alexander let her down. That hurt Honor. That hurt Honor badly. And I hurt for her. Oh the tears I shed for Honor.
But surely, her Monarch would understand. Honor had done none other than to serve her Monarch with outstanding fealty. She had given everything of herself for her Star Kingdom. And
never asked for anything for herself. Ever.
Her shipmates hoped she wouldn't do it. Hoped she wouldn't challenge Young to a duel and kill him like the deserving scum he was. Hamish Alexander wished she wouldn't do it. Even forbade her to, amidst outward disappointment, which cut her deeper than Nimitz' claws ever could. The government didn't understand her. And Elizabeth. The Queen herself. Her friend. Couldn't back her.
I am so sorry Honor. And so embarrassed for everyone's actions. Here's Cthia's apology to you.
How could Elizabeth allow her government to collect retribution from Honor?
It broke Honor. She went to Grayson and almost died. The fire
had died! She no longer looked to herself as a capable officer. What??? Wesley asked her if she'd help train the GSN. She couldn't believe he, the GSN, would want an old, semi-retired Admiral who'd lost her fire. That's just how she saw herself. She thought of herself as an out-of-sorts officer. Her confidence had waned. She had lost her sharp edge. THAT hurt to assimilate. Heck, Wesley Matthews couldn't believe his windfall. That he might receive the input of Admiral Honor "Salamander" Harrington because the idiots-to-be in the RMN has sent her to his waiting and appreciative arms. It hurt me that
politics, something Honor didn't like, in tandem with a shattered heart, had all but broken her.
Many thought she was a crazy, loose canon. But she was anything but. Everyone, and the assinine situations around her, was making her crazy. Hell, Honor was sane. It was all the shit that everyone was subjecting her to that was making her, would have long ago made anyone else, insane! Honor was in danger of losing herself. No one listened to her and
truly understood, that she needed to do what a woman needed to do, for
her! Little wonder Honor didn't just walk in some public place strapped with a pulse carbine and jimmy flat blast everyone! "CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?!?
Now, I understand why Elizabeth couldn't support Honor's actions. And, I was endeared to Elizabeth even more for that. Honor had become Elizabeth's friend. In many ways her equal. And not many others did Elizabeth respect more than she respected Honor. No one has to tell me the pain and distress that had to cause, and probably still causes, Elizabeth. But she was a Monarch, with the lives of an entire Star Kingdom on her shoulders. She bore that weight as she always had. Her decision to allow her government to 'run Honor out of town,' was the kind of decision that Honor respected in her Monarch.
But just this once, Honor
needed total support, as she was about to lose the only type battle she was ill-equipped to fight. A personal, emotional one.
Please forgive my rant. Like Honor, I needed to vent. Frustration is like a sneeze. If you try to contain its buildup, it can hurt someone.